True Lies

Love Don't Liv Here

--Confessions of the Heart--

Dear LOVE,

Its been a while since we have spoken but I wanted to reach out to you to try to hash out some of our differences.  A couple of people used your name at my doorstep hoping to enter my soul but there actions did not co sign their name dropping. To be honest I never seen myself fuckn with you again after you broke me the last time. It seems when I put my trust in you, you let me down but there is something about you that keeps me interested.You cool with my family and children but every time a companion or one of your messengers come around you turn up the bullshit! I know you didn't put a gun to my head and make me accept you, or fall into you. I just didn't like the way you took me on a roller coaster. I even convinced the brain that following you was right so with that being said my soul and flesh followed. Dam we had some good times doe, when you were good to me didn't nothing fuck up my vibe, a hater couldn't tell me nothing, I felt strong as 100 gorillas and would give up an arm for you. What the fuck did I do to make you hurt me, you said it wasn't you but if I never met you I wouldn't be hurt. Imma need you to do a better job of pre screening your messengers because I cant take the abuse, the lies, the drama, the ache &pains. Shid Id rather just wing it without you for a minute but you a sneaky mutherfucka! You will break in when least expected to where I don't have a choice but to deal with you, that's the ish I don't like about you LOVE. Guess that's why I have been avoiding you in certain aspects. I mean you and Jesus go hand n hand and that is why I respect your genuine efforts but sheeeeesh. Why cant I have somebody respect you like I do. I mean I was so in to you only for the person you had for me not to show up! Oh the pain I endured for years, out there in that water knowing I cant swim if the boat flipped over! Dam, being the adult in the situation, I cant put the blame on you, cant put the blame on them, so i must take the blame and for that reason i left you alone. Sure your are more than welcome around my family, true friends, and children but don't hit my line when I'm dating! LOL I'm not ready to see you and to keep it a hunid don't know if I ever wanna see you around. Now if they bring you, you better let them know don't play with me because I'm one or two breaks away from being on Snapped. And I ain't on no victim plays, I'm the suspect. Now that I think about it, you can tell Trust i don't fux wit em neither. Y'all two roll together and if I can deal with one I cant deal with the other. While we rapping a taste maybe you can tell me where the hell is Loyalty at? I ain't seen em no where, I'm looking for em, flash light in the daylight type shit. I prob need Loyalty more this point in my life. How bout you put together a meeting or a reunion with you, Trust, and Loyalty..we all sit down and work on a project together. Now I'm open to that but I haven't been able to get you 3 all together in 30 years when it comes to a partner. I want to find that individual that wants to be apart of that meeting, who's smiles highlight my day, who's kisses ignite my fire, and who words warms me. My care giver can be butt naked in Alaska in front of a one unit AC blowing on high and the believe that someone else has you to give to me will keep the body and me hot like Florida 24/7. On a more serious note..You already know how sensitive I can be, but I'm cold these days mainly to protect myself. When I'm exposed I get stepped on so the wall is as high as Whiz Khalifa on a latter. So with all that being said, the next time somebody comes looking for you without my consent my answer will be "love don't live here" so tell them who don't bring Trust and Loyalty with them to keep ya name out they mouth and I will keep them out my house!

your old time friend,

                      The Heart